Thoughts

When I lost M on 29th June, 2005, I struggled with many things to do with my life. It was a dark place and a long way down. after some time, a lovely woman doctor said to me that it would be good to go away and rediscover qualities in myself that might have been suppressed within such a deep relationship as marriage. She was right. I went to Fuerteventura in March 2006 a nervous and apprehensive man - unsure who I was, where I was going or whether I would want to return to what had been our home.
It worked out.
I wrote lots while I was away which helped. I am determined this site should not become a 'shrine' to M's memory in any way. But it would be nice to post some of the wee pieces I wrote in Fuerteventura - the serious and the silly - because they were all part of my healing.
So they may crop up every so often!
Like this one....

CONCERTO


I have just listened to a violin concerto.
It was played with such a glacial finesse
With passages
Of glittering beauty
Such vibrant passion
And such shimmering sadness
It cut holes in my heart.
It closed my eyes
And reminded me
Of all things beautiful and passionate
That have ever been in my life.
And, perhaps
Have yet to come.
Once more.


Fuerteventura March 2006